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Alright. Biggest pet peeve. Sick chomping chewing food noises. Shut the crap up!

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So.

I'm pretty sure I polished off an entire supermarket today. It's getting close to that happy time of the month and that's when the cravings start a'rollin in from FoodVille Central! Ba dum dush! Alright alright... that's an exaggeration (see previous post for biggest weakness). 1 0'clock hit and suddenly a monsoon of violating "munchies" ambushed my delicate insides! I mean, I kept glancing with guilt at my body wondering if I should just masticate an arm or something. {{Eating a body part doesn't count as food, or something that has "calories"}}

I ate a string cheese instead. And then, STILL thought about gnawing a ligament off.
(I don't need ALL my fingers right? RIGHT?!)

But guess what? It's about nine o'clock PM and I still have 200 calories to consume. Oh the sweet sweet possibilities! Plus I peeked at my progress today because... well I was curious- and I'm not going to give anything away just yet, because technically we weight in tomorrow night.. but.. things are lookin' pretty freaking good. Big smile. :D

Highlights for today?

1) Awesome new song by J-sean. Jay Shawn? Jai Shahn? -"Do You Remember"

2) I have selected a research topic for my final paper ( Professors and Outdated Material)

3) I ate some nummylicious spaghetti for din-din

4) It's 9:15, and I'm going to bed.

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Middle name: Jo. Yeeeaap. I used to hate it, and now I rock it.
How old will you be this year? 21?
Nicknames: Che', Chels, Cheltz ( I hate this one), Chellie, Dreadlocks ( because I used to have them)
Are you taller than your mother or father? How do I put this... this questions sucks.
Do you cry often during movies? No. I've cried in 2 my entire life. Might Jo Young ( the part where he falls off the ferris wheel- go figure), and My Sisters Keeper. Oh, and I actually bawled my eyes out when I watched this commercial for animal rescue awesomeness.
What is your biggest pet peeve? biggest?
Favorite color: Forest Green, any colour green really.
Favorite foods: Wisteria knows this one! :D
Favorite restaurants: Costa Vida, my house.
Favorite beverage: Water, water, and more water. Everything else blows.
Favorite cold cereal: Anything granola-ish. Like.. granola ( ha!), porridge, oatmeal, bubble and squeak....
Favorite smells: burning rubber, sunshine (yes, you can smell it), rotting leaves, and licorice.
Favorite time of day: Sunrise.
What brand of shampoo/conditioner do you use? Whatever is cheapest.
Favorite make-up products? Mascara, though I don't really need it. Oh, and Chapstick.
How many pillows do you sleep with? 3
Do you play an instrument? Piano
Have you ever been skinny dipping? Duh.
Did you do any sports in High School? Swam all 4 years.
What was the last movie you saw in the theater? The Proposal- glorious.
What is your favorite article of clothing? Do socks count?
What is your dream vacation? Israel. I long to take a walk through Jerusalem.
If you were an animal what would you be? Monarch butterfly. No doubt!
What is your favorite “me- time” activity? Playing the piano, blogging, dancing.
Favorite TV shows: the Office, Cosby Show, and World Championships/Olympics
What is your dream car? Subaru. Any model, any year. Any time. Any place.
What is one of your weaknesses? Exaggeration! (i.e. English Prof " You got a 97% on your SUV paper". Me: " Oh my gosh, [insert name]! I totally just aced my English paper, and I think my professor is going to nominate me to go to Nationals in the Essay competition at United Nations- something about meeting with the president to discuss my ideas on fuel emission reduction. Also. I think just won a prize for about $200. Or it $200000000? Anyways, she pretty much loves me so I'm set for the rest of my writing career!"
What do you fix for dinner when there’s nothing to fix? Toast with cheese and tomatoes.
If you could live in a different decade/era which one would it be? I wouldn't. I love the here and now.
Do you consider yourself outgoing? Not at all.
What is something you are constantly working on? My skills as a woman.( cooking, cleaning, sewing, homemaking, child care, etc etc etc.)
Any hidden talents? I know how to take DNA from a Radish plant. And I'm a great singer. Yes! It's true!
What is a word or phrase you overuse? Awesome.
What is the worst thing that happened to you this past year? My dog jumped on my head. It was uncomfortable.
What is the best thing that happened to you this past year? I've met some pretty outstanding individuals.
What is one thing you hope to accomplish this year? Can't say.
The best piece of advice you learned this past year? "Hey, you can be comfortable later, but until then.. just be uncomfortable...."

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It's here. There's just no getting around it. Winter has come, and it looks like it's going to stay- for awhile. I thought for sure this snow storm was a fake out- that things would go back to sunny and breezy by tomorrow- and the next day- and the next day- and the day after that. The snow has stuck, there's ice on my car windshield ( I didn't go out, I just looked through the back door window) and I see a hint of an icicle over on the west side of the house.

Things could turn around, and you can bet your bottom dollar my digits are crossed. I'm not ready to endure the "cage" yet.

Updates:
1 lb lost as of last night. Which is hopeful because I was counting on this week being better. Week #2 made me want to sob buckets of boiling tears ( but I DIDN'T!)

I am so blessed.

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First of all, it's Meggae's birthday today and I wish I was down in P-ville celebrating with her! Hopefully this upcoming weekend something can happen {{Frightmares?}}. I have her pressie all ready to go and I can't wait for her to see it! She's going to think it's awesome! I know it!

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Interesting conversation last night with Jan and Sarah Lynne. We were just talking about, I dunno.. boys and stuff. Nothing super specific and I'm always in awe when Jan gives us theories on life and the way it should go- and it's mostly because I simply don't agree with her on most of it. I was explaining the program I'm doing and that started our topic of food. The foods we like and the ones we don't.

Eventually the conversation came around to me and I explained I don't enjoy red meat. Jan, after sucking in a violent breath goes: "You should probably keep that fact about yourself TO yourself when you're around guys". I thought about that, the way she said, thought about saying something but decided against because.. well it actually pissed me off.

So here I am, about to explain my vegetarianism to myself instead of her because it TMO. Yes. I'm vegetarian, but guess what? Nothing I'm doing is imposing on anyone else's lifestyle. I don't hate people that eat meat. To all you meat lovers out there- you could eat a steak every single effing day for the rest of your life and I couldn't give a CRAP. The only people I know that are radical about any sort of dietary habit, are those that have radical principles behind them. My reasoning behind abstaining from meat doesn't hinge on the fact that I don't think animals should be killed. Why the "h" do you think animals are here? 99% of the population eats meat, and what the trash would I ever try and do about? I don't like meat the same way that Sarah Lynne hates broccoli, or the way daddy doesn't like eggs or cauliflower. And there's absolutley nothing wrong that. And there's something wrong with YOU if you think it IS a problem.

And as far as guys are concerned ( because according to Jan I can't end up with anyone BECAUSE I don't eat the reds) I'm not looking for someone whose going to adopt my lifestyle. I'm looking for someone that can tolerate and respect my decisions ( and just because I don't eat it, doesn't mean I don't know how to cook it!). And I guess if a guy's not intersted because I'm less carnivorous.. then screw em'. I wouldn't want to be with someone like that anyways.

The point is, I'm not going to hold back a part of my lifestyle that's part of who I am because it might be some kind of turn off for "guys". And I'm not going to start eating red meat because "guys" might find that more appealing than someone who thoroughly enjoys sprouts.

If what I'm doing isn't affecting or imposing on your rights to choose how to live your effing life- then back off of mine. You eat your steak. I'll eat my salad. Fairs fair.

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Well, guess whose going to New Zealand for a month? You got it. Me! And let me tell you, it's fantastic finally having something to look forward to. It's been a long time since an actual adventure was closing in on the horizons ( I mean besides Thailand 9 months ago). And I have the perfect amount of time to save up for it. Things could NOT get better.

Except that I haven't figured out where I'm going for Humanitarian Aid in 2010.
I'd really like to go somewhere in the US, just because it would be a different experience. But of course I'm not opposed to anything overseas. I mean... obivously.

Top Ten Places Currently?

1. Israel
2. Mongolia
3. Phillipines
4. Uzbekistijan
5. Turkey ( Istanbul)
6. Canada
7. Russia
8. Florida (Hurrican Katrina volunteer work)
9. Bolivia
10. Greece

I lost 0 lbs this week. Week 2 is the hardest though, and I don't feel to bad because a bunch of other people didn't lose any either. And at least I didn't gain right?. Elimination is on Mon. I'm jittery and this mornings nutrition seminar threw me for a loop. Turns out my favorite salad, at my FAVORITE restaurant has 2,000 calories in it. Um. WHAT? My favorite salad. It's not like I go out to eat really anyways. I mean.. I'd say I probably go get lunch.. about once every 3-4 months. And I never eat fast food-unless Subway counts as fast food? But anyways... what a suck fest that turned out to be. I got really depressed and went hardcore swimming for an hour after the seminar. And uh.. I'm never eating out again. She talked about candy and pop. But since I don't eat any of those things either turns out I'm actually doing ok. Except for carbs, which I've talked about before.

Anyway. My "team" won a $25 gift card to use at the club so.. I'm thinking a massage is definitely on the agenda. And there's a dance tonight so that'll be some good... awesomness.
Mum bought me a food scale so now my calories will be more accurate. I watched some fanastic World Champion Figure Skating and Alpine skiing. And I finished more then half my homework.

All that's left. 2 math assignments and 10 more pages of reading for Natural Disasters.
I finished my SUV paper, got started on topics for our final paper.
I also wrote my Biology Lab report on biodiversity and oxygen.
Finished my reading for Anthr.
And now these 3 things left.


I'm so close!
Hoo. Raw.

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Note: this won't make sense to any one who may or may not stumble across this. So skip, hop, and move on to the next blog, or become so confused you'll want to {{serrate}} your own leg off with a dull ice skate.I just have a lot of things that I have on my mind. And I don't know how to organize them, so I'm just gonna barf through my fingers and get it all out onto this web log.

Disgusting.

First of all, the TV in my lil' bro's room just keeps turning on randomly. I swear this house is haunted in the early mornings. I remember the first time it happened. It was pm actually. (So it's haunted ALL the time?!) I was home alone sitting at the computer composing some sort of lame-ish litany about random happenings and boring ancedotes when all of a sudden.. it turns on. Terrifying. I remember stealthily approaching the play room door with a flimsy white and blue umbrella ( What I was going to do with it I have no idea. Open it and stick the assassin in the eye?), pushed the door open silently then plunged around the corner waving said umbrella madly. Nothing & no one was there.

Turns out there's actually a short in the wires. But I'm just gonna say it's haunted for the sake of.. my own need for a thrill.

(turns off static)

U.L has been going really well. Yesterday I barely worked up a sweat. I'm not sure if that's because I'm getting stronger, fitter, faster, hotter ( heh)... or if it was because I just didn't work my self hard enough. I decided it was because I didn't work hard enough and stayed for another hour at the gym running on the DREADmill and focusing on core/ab tecniques. I worked up a sweat there, so I felt good about coming home and spending 2-3 hours watching the World Championship Figureskating and Ironman competitions with Daddy and Talisa.

And can I just say that the COUNTDOWN TO VANCOUVER IS ON! My life spirals around the Olypmic games, and I'm not ashamed to say that I spent the entire 2 weeks on the couch, stuffing my face with whatever is available, watching the most amazing display of adrenaline pumping, jaw dropping, life inspiring thrills that man and womankind can offer me. The human body amazes me. Especially when I see it doing tricks. (Sighs).

My dream is to be there, in London, for the Summer Games. Enough about that.


I dunno. Things have just been a little wierd lately. (G) is interesting. I don't really know what I'm trying to do with that situation.. as much as I know what I'm NOT trying to do. It's not my problem he's attractive and unavailable. But I just really enjoy talking to him, and I feel like he likes talking to me to. So we can be friends right? Then there's (E) who for some reason can't ever remember my name but also is very friendly. I feel good about it. Clark is still there, but I'm so intimidated by him ( because he's so freaking tall) that I can hardly make myself say "hello" to him. Pretty pathetic. Seth is a sweetheart. And Lane is a good kid to. And all the while (W) is acting like a freak. I don't know. Things in that area never really go according to plan, but then they never do so maybe I should just... stop.

I think that's what I've decided. It's time to just sit back, drink my pina colada' and just go with the flow because I feel like I've been pushing against the current for a long time.
Oh. And G never called when he said he would.
So. I am 0 for 5-6. Awesome.


There's a dance party on Sat. I'm definitley going. Meggae's birthday is coming up and I already have my pressie for her! I still need to find out about Frightmares though. (shivers). I'm really excited for Christmas and I can now play 2 christmas songs fairly well. Not really well. I need to make a dance video for a secret friend. And classes for the most part are going ok. Ok? All "A's"!

Except my biology lab.
Can I just say for the record, that I really don't care about the sexual practices of guppies? Or about bloodworms, nymphs, or leeches? I just don't. I mean, I'm glad there are people out there that study this stuff and come up with inspiring knowledge about how guppies mate, and how the males take preference towards one sort compared to another... but I could care less. I'm pretty sure I can go my entire life without EVER needing that information.

EVer.

I'll prove it. Starting now.

My throat hurts. So I keep drinking Emergen'C packets because it's like eating 10 billion oranges full of vitamin C. That should keep me healthy. If it doesn't go away by tomorrow I'm going into the doctor to get some kind of hardcore throat sore stopper. Pathetic? I don't care.

So now I need to get to work on my final draft of the SUV paper. Get ahead on reading. Try and figure out my math homework ( scientific notation) and get ready for the day.


Yay.