I desperately need to rake through another chapter of "The American Democracy". Which probably sounds like it would be humdrum and colorless, but I dig it so much it's like leisure reading. Can't get enough of our muddled political system and government. Fascinating. Seriously.
And hilarious. Which is mostly why I revel in it. The more I discover and understand it, the more batty and gump it becomes. We are SO sophisticated here in the states.... nothing about it is logical. Anyways...
Before I skedaddle off to put a couple hours in, feast upon a deliciously hot and tasty meal (home made chicken noodle soup and wheat bread) and finally sunder my shoes (because they now feel glued to my feet) I wanted to jot a few things down. Mostly for myself.
I was having a pretty difficult morning. Not getting to bed early is really starting to do me in. Once again I didn't make it to my math class, of course I can't say that I minded to much when I looked outside and saw how gray and cold it was. It WAS one of those days where you snuggle under the covers and take another 1/2 hour. And I did.
I'm not sure if it was also the weather that made me break down as I ate my oatmeal this morning. No one was home. Well, no one was home that was also awake and in any near proximity to me.
I thought about that while I put myself back together, rinsed my dishes and grabbed a snack for later on my way out the door. The whole drive up to the school I just couldn't stop crying. In the end, because I needed to just find a reason for the whole episode, I decided I just needed a friend. And after I decided that, I felt like a 5 year old.
I thought about that as I headed to Institute.
It was a beautiful if not hard lesson. We talked about what happens if we decide not to repent. I'm not going to write about all the new things I learned IN that lesson ( though it was a lot and really put things into a different light for me) , but I sat down next to a girl named Janice. She was nice. And I felt better as she talked to me. She's a piano player and liked my earrings. I know it's small but I love her for talking to me today, even though I barely responded.
It was a good thing that happened because later in Political Science I sat next to some boys that spent the entire hour talking about how stupid mormon girls are. Wow. Weird.
After class I headed home. Nichelle started texting me. Our conversation made me burst into tears again but I felt good knowing that someone cared about me for that moment. Right after that Erika got in contact with me and invited me over for a few minutes. I took her some grapes from my garden and she'd made me some healthy cookies (appreciative doesn't come close to how I feel about that). Charles was a sweetheart and I love their home!
I went and worked out, which always helps when I'm feeling weird or sad.
Then up to school. Katie started texting and was pretty awesome about wanting to hang out with me.
I'm not sure what happened today. But I really needed a friend. And many were looking out for me today. I'm really grateful for that, and I hope I'm there for people when they have weird days to. I don't know who reads this or who cares but I just wanted to say THANK YOU for being the friends that I needed and need. I love you all!
Now I have to go and work on some homework, maybe watch some political ads just for fun and stretch because I'm SO sore! Night all!