So ya know.
I don't do things half way. It's not like me,out of my element, and s I haven't felt like I could go "all in" with anything for a long time.
Now I do.
It's either completely passive, or overly active.
I'm kinda in limbo right now, exploding at the same time as imploding.
Kind of a weird feeling and I just want to let it all out!